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I must be getting old

Right now, I’m under more stress than I have been in a long time. (No, it’s not the party – it’s other factors in life right now.)

Time was, I thrived under stress and could power through anything. I ate it up, didn’t sleep, and came out feeling like a million bucks.

Right now, it’s just wearing me down, making me want to give up for a bit, sleep for hours, gnash and wail.

I’m used to always being the rock and the anchor, and it makes it hard to have times that I need a bigger rock or a stronger anchor, especially when I don’t feel right burdening friends with my issues and concerns and worries.

Things will change. They always do, and I know that. I just find it harder now to weather each valley and savor each peak.

Argh.

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59 Replies to “I must be getting old”

  1. whall

    I would say hang in there but I don’t condone suicide.

    Wait, weren’t you doing some sort of pool on how many comments would go by that were sappy before you got a snarky one? Who had “1”? YOU WIN!

  2. SciFi Dad

    I don’t know about you, but for me, when I was younger stress didn’t bother me as much because I was too stupid and self-absorbed to realize what was really important. Therefore, what I stressed about wasn’t all that critical. Now when I get stressed, I get stressed about big stuff. BIG FUCKING STUFF. And so it hits me a lot harder. Maybe it’s the same for you?

    I’d say I’m willing to talk (which I am), but really, you have a huge support network here, so my offer seems somewhat moot. Nonetheless, if you choose to email/chat, I’m here.

  3. jenny

    Hope whatever is stressing you out gets resolved soon, or at least becomes a bit less stressful. And having a blast at the Halloween party will at least serve as an insanely fun distraction!

  4. Faiqa

    Aww, c’mere big guy ::hug::.
    I wonder if it isn’t that your getting older, but that the problems get bigger as time passes by. More is at stake, etc.
    Talk to someone. Anyone. We’re social animals, we need to divert stress onto others…and, in my experience, people like yourself, who are always there for others, are never a burden when they decide to share their problems. In fact, I generally feel honored when a person who doesn’t whine constantly calls me and screams, “I can’t take this shit anymore.”

  5. radioactivegirltori

    I SO could have written this right now. I feel like I am being asked to prove I am tough enough to deal with it but at some points (like right this very second) I wonder how much more I can take before I just give up. Sadly, there really is no way to give up…it’s called being a grown up and taking responsibility for things even when they aren’t of your doing. But it would be nice to have a tiny break from stuff for just a day or even an hour!

    I can understand and relate to this post like no other. I hope both of us find some better times just ahead. And have a great party…maybe that will help you feel better?

  6. Tracy Lynn

    I deeply hate being serious, but for me, it comes down to two things when I’m in the Hiroshima Anxiety place. Taking care of myself and just doing the next thing in front of me. And yeah, getting older makes it harder, but like Scifi said, that’s because you fully realize the stakes.

    Let me know if there is anything I can do to help. It’s not so bad relying on friends once in awhile. Dumbass. :thumbsup:

  7. Grant

    It’s definitely a sign of getting older. I used to thrive on adversity, but now I just want things to go smoothly. I’ve had all the excitement and drama I need for one lifetime. I will say though, after I got over my initial fear and distaste, it is actually nice when friends take care of you.

  8. Hilly

    I hate that you are feeling this way, especially since I know exactly how it feels. Much like you, I lived on the thrill of stress and now, I just have to avoid avoid avoid.

    You need birthday cake and a good porno.

  9. thedemigod

    A little :boobs4: to get you started on :jerkoff2: followed by some of :hug: capped by :fisting: (easily the most disturbing I’ve seen so far).

    Hang in there. Just reading your blog just makes my gnashing and wailing subside if only for like, 10 minutes.

    Just grab misery by the balls and SQUEEEEEEZE hard. 🙂

  10. maman

    As Lillith used to say when she was a toddler, “E-Lax”. I find that masturbation helps…

    No, honestly, stress hits us differently at different points in our lives, it doesn’t necessarily have to do with getting older. it is just circumstances. Hang in there.

  11. Sheila (Charm School Reject)

    A wise man once said something to the effect of “if you can’t bitch on your blog, what the fuck is the point”. That wise man, was you, to me, a while back (I think I completely effed up my comma placement in that sentence but eh, oh well).

    Feel free to bitch away – you don’t always have to be crass and full of funny. Me love you long time, with or without the funny schtuff.

  12. RW

    It’s your own damn fault. Do you drink? No you do not. Have you ever allowed alcohol to work its theraputic magic on you? No you have not. So don’t come crying to me. But you can email any time.

  13. Dawn

    I know how you feel, and I hope it gets better for you, me, and everyone else who’s in this funk. It will — you’re stronger than you realize. Don’t forget to be good to yourself.

  14. Evil Genius

    Oh Avi, you’re not old! But I totally hear ya on the stress. After awhile, it really does tend to drag us down. My brain is pretty much mush right now, but all I can tell you is to hang in there, ’cause sooooooo many people love and care about you!!

  15. michelle

    Dude, i don’t know you but i feel you. My days are spent trying to just get by and hold on to something. Anything really. Just know this:
    I can relate and mostly everybody else can to! You are not alone in this. Love ya dude!!!

    Michelle

  16. Stephanie

    Adam, I have heard so many people say this lately. People who are the “tough” ones, the rocks that people lean on. Sometimes you need to do some leaning of your own. And though she’s tiny, Britt would let you lean on her, I’m sure. I don’t have the magic words, because I feel the same way. Just hang in there kid…quit watching stupid news, reading the paper, etc. This political shit and the economy and everything will drag you down.
    And because you hate people in general, and emotional stuff….I’ll close with this.

    Suck it up, you whiny bitch.
    :hug:

  17. SJ

    You’ve got throngs of loving supporters, for sure. I hope you are the center of a massive group hug Saturday night. Hate it or not, it’s good for you. Feel better …

    :hug: :hug: :hug: {Adam} :hug: :hug: :hug:

  18. Meagan

    I know exactly what you mean…not that you ever would but you can always talk to me…and you know mom and dad are always there to listen. Sorry I couldn’t make it last night, I know I missed out. See ya on thanksgiving I hope.

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