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I am fat

My name is Adam Heath Avitable and I am fat.

On my birthday this year – January 26th, I turned 32. And I weighed 410 pounds.

My weight has always been an issue. In high school, it was the same old story as most fat guys you know. I was strong, I could eat anything, and I was unstoppable. In college, the freshman 15 was more like the freshman 40, and by the time I graduated at the age of 21, I was on my way to being obese.

Law school wasn’t much better. A sedentary lifestyle combined with a love for every delicious food that existed led to a steady increase in my weight. I met Amy and had a reason to try to lose weight. For her, I tried several different diets and they all failed. They all failed for one reason – I wasn’t doing it for myself. This meant that I’d cheat. And gain even more weight.

My third year of law school, I finally decided that Iasd wanted to lose weight FOR MYSELF. Doing nothing more than Weight Watchers, I stuck with it for four months and lost 40 pounds. I felt better, Amy was happier, and I could see a change coming. Unfortunately, though, that change was a move to Los Angeles where I worked 14 hours a day starting a company, ordering food in, eating some of the worst food I could possibly ever eat. A Double Western Bacon Cheeseburger with fries and a chocolate chip cookie from Carl’s Jr. was my breakfast. And that was the lowest calorie meal I’d eat all day.

I never weighed myself. I was too scared to see the reality of the situation, but I noticed in other ways. Getting a booth at a restaurant was a risky proposition because some restaurants had less room than others, so I’d always ask for a table. I wouldn’t go to Olive Garden because their chairs had arms on them that would make it uncomfortable. Going through turnstiles at theme parks became impossible and I had to ask the attendant to let me walk through the handicapped gate. Airplane seat belts were a joke. Every chair was assessed for sturdiness before I’d lower myself into it.

The worse things got, the more stressed I’d get. Combined with the stress of owning my own business and the fact that I am a stress eater, I’d just eat more and more. I could eat a small birthday cake in two days’ time. I would go to Burger King at 11:00 at night and get a Triple Whopper, a BK Double Stacker, Large Fry, and a Hershey’s Sundae Pie. I’d order an entire large pizza just for myself. And at night I would snore like a freight train, I would stop breathing for minutes at a time thanks to apnea and I’d eat Tums like they were candy to prevent the inevitable heartburn and acid reflux.

I knew that I wanted to lose weight. I knew that I wanted to take the stress off of my heart and my joints before it was too late. I just couldn’t do it. I poured everything I had into my business, and that meant leaving my health as the lowest possible priority. The chance of dying of a heart attack by 40 was very real. And I decided that I needed to stop making excuses, recognize my weaknesses, and ask for help.

In January of this year, I met with Dr. Stephen Levine of Coastal Bariatrics in Ormond Beach, Florida. Dr. Levine performs LAP-BAND surgery on obese patients throughout Central Florida. Simply put, the laparascopic band is a small silicone band placed at the top of your stomach that creates a small pouch. Since the nerves that tell your brain that you are full are located at the top of your stomach, when this pouch fills up with food, it sends a signal to your brain telling you that you are full, and you retain that feeling of being full for 4-5 hours afterwards. Since the pouch only holds about four ounces of food, you fill up quickly, significantly limiting your caloric intake, losing weight in a way similar to other surgical solutions without the risks inherent to those avenues.

Dr. Levine and I had a long discussion. He saw me as a viable candidate for the surgery, but before he was willing to schedule the surgery, I had to lose 5-10% of my weight first. So after my 32nd birthday, I weighed myself on a special scale that was designed for obese people weighing over 400 pounds, and started to lose.

From February 1st to March 1st, I had lost 30 pounds, alternating between achieving ketosis with no carbs and a liquid diet that was high in protein and low in calories. On March 2nd, my surgery was scheduled for March 25th. For the three weeks before my surgery, I was on an exclusively liquid diet, drinking high protein shakes and bottles of water four or five times a day, and that was it. And on the day of my surgery, I weighed in at 360 pounds – 50 pounds lost in less than 60 days.

The surgery was quick. I was home that afternoon and back to work the next morning. For the next few weeks, I was restricted to liquids, and then pureed foods, and then soft mushy foods, and finally real food.

Eating real food has some caveats, though. I weigh my food for most meals. Anything more than four ounces will come right back up. I have to chew my food 15-20 times per bite. Every meal should take me 15-20 minutes minimum. Certain foods will not go down properly and will make me choke or, even worse, vomit. My intake of soda has to be limited considerably. No more liquid calories. No more gulping food. My life, which has revolved around food and eating, has changed. My lifestyle has changed.

On my birthday this year – January 26th, I weighed 410 pounds.

Today, I weigh 310. I can sit in booths and go through turnstiles and walk around all day without getting short of breath. But I’m not done yet. By October, I plan on weighing 260. By December, 240. And by my 33rd birthday – January 26th, 2010, I plan on being at my goal weight of 225.

My name is Adam Heath Avitable and I am fat.

For now.

421 thoughts on “I am fat”

  1. Adam, you are awesome. Because anyone who has ever dealt with any sort of weight issue knows how hard you have worked to have made that kind of progress already. Cheers to you and your continued journey. Can’t wait to meet you in a few short weeks. XOXO

  2. Seriously, the difference already in your pictures is amazing. I’m really proud of you. I know it’s been a long road and it’s been really difficult, but you’re doing so great.

  3. Thanks for telling this story, Adam. I wish you all the best in getting to your goal weight.

    I’m fat, too – 214 lbs and just starting on the journey to being thinner, using a book called “Think Yourself Thin,” which is about cognitive therapy and weight loss. I am terrified that I won’t be able to do it. I love food too much and have used it for so many things other than nutrition – stress relief, boredom relief, bonding with friends, etc. I could stand to lose at least 65 lbs. The scary thing to me is that to lose the weight, I know I have to quit drinking as well, because one glass of wine and all my will power goes away. And the thought of being without my dear food AND without the buzzy comfort of alcohol – that’s a little much.

    Anyway, enough about me. I wish you all the best.

  4. My name is Kristi, and I would only call myself fat if I were an attention-seeking whore. Which I’m not. Today.

    I did, however, spend a good part of the spring hulu-ing The Biggest Loser and convincing myself that perhaps-PERHAPS- a 32-year-old girl who is not obese should be able to run a mile every now and then. And I became 100% inspired by those formerly lethargic, now totally athletic, formerly obese people. And obsessed. A little bit. We’re too young to not be healthy. Too young to not be able to get out and run a little bit. Too young to give up. GOOD LORD 32 is the new 12. So they say.

    Keep it up, Mister. I look forward to your progress.

  5. That’s awesome. And, may I add, even the black box hiding the boys got skinnier.

    I’ve been staring at my gut for a while now. Reading your post makes me realize I want to do something about it. Thanks for the inspiration.

  6. You know, Adam… I was here earlier watching your video eating the gross jelly beans and I just kept thinking, “holy cow… he’s lost weight.” I could see it on your face… I am inspired and in awe. I relate to this entire thing… I lose and put on twenty pounds in a week’s time and it drives me crazy. You look awesome and I’ll bet you’re feeling awesome, too!

    And next time, could you please forego the black privacy strips? We really need to make sure you’re not losing any weight in your penis.

  7. You’ve made such awesome progress since January! 100 pounds!! You’re totally awesome! I hope you know that I think the world of you for this post, and for being so brave touching a subject that A LOT of people tend to avoid.

    Keep up the great work, for you though!!!

  8. Congratulations, Adam – what a transformation you have begun. The biggest difference that I see between those two photos is in your eyes…. hope.

    Even the big black box on your boy parts is smaller!

    Keep up the good work.

      1. @Avitable, well, I still think it took courage, whether it was your only choice or not, does not take away from that. You blogged about it! You told the world this is my goal and simply by doing that you are closer to it. We are all watching and cheering now. 🙂

  9. I thought you looked thinner, but didn’t want to say anything.

    Great work Adam. I recently took the same decision and have lost 70lb over a year. As I said to someone else recently, it’s “just’ a mater of getting obsessed with it really and never eating anything without thinking about it first.

    Anyhow, you know what is good for weightloss? Walking for 84 miles across the width of England.

    Just saying is all.

    1. @Dan, I can tell that you’ve lost weight, and that’s impressive. Nicely done. I would actually really love to join you for your walk, but I’m too high maintenance. I need a nice hotel, you know?

  10. I am SO PROUD of you for posting about this. It is such a taboo topic. I am in the process of work to lose my 5-10% now and hope to have surgery scheduled by September. Thanks for posting this….

      1. @Avitable, It it the Roux-en-Y. It is the full bypass. I considered the band, but fear with my other health issues it wouldn’t have been enough. I will be 33 in August, and was hoping to have my surgery scheduled by my birthday, but it looks like it won’t be that soon.

  11. Oh, fucking hell. I can’t even bring myself to a smart ass comment. So this:

    In whatever way you can, be happy. Your friendship means more to me than you may know. You keep on inspiring me and making me laugh and wanting to just hang in there.

    You’re so fucking incredible. I love you, man. (Not drunk. Swear. I’m not drunk.)

  12. Congrats on the weight loss! Keep up the good work and Dr. Oz says that you gain penis length with weight loss. I am guessing by your goal weight you will be removing those black strips. Wink, wink.

      1. @Avitable, He is the Oprah doctor. He used to do spots on her show almost once a week and did a whole show on men that I forced my hubby to watch. He discussed how when a man loses weight the fat in the groin area pulls back and for (I am trying to remember here) every 35 pounds you gain 1 inch of penis length. That is to what I was eluding. Found the link for you, it is the second clip on the video. Keep up the great work and you can already be bragging that you are 3 inches bigger!

  13. I think it is AWESOME that you can talk about this and that you have come this far. I am pretty sure I have let you know in chat, but I am telling you again: you really are awesome for making the effort and for showing real results. Go you!

  14. That’s amazing! I’ve been thinking when I saw photos of you that you looked thinner, now it makes sense! I’d love to talk to you a bit more about it, but I’ll msg you in private.

    You look great 🙂

  15. When you hinted about your procedure, I wondered if this was it. Then I noticed your face getting thinner.

    I just want to say Congratulations and I’m glad you’ll be around a lot longer to keep us laughing!
    You and Britt can take turns keeping the carbs away from each other.

  16. Thank god, because Sizzle and I were talking a few weeks ago, and I was all Has Adam lost weight? He looks like it, and she was all I don’t know, and then we looked and then we agreed you looked significantly thinner.

    I’m exhausted just typing that.

      1. @Avitable, There are a few more complications for me because I’ve had a kidney transplant. The first being…I want the lap band, and they would prefer to do one of the more permanent procedures that I’m not fond of. They are worried there are too many moving parts in the lap band that could slip and cause infection…harder for me to fight off because my immune system is suppressed for the kidney stuff.

        The second being…I just don’t think I could commit to the regiment. I already have to eat at specific times to coordinate with the drugs I take multiple times a day. I’m not allowed to eat 2 hours before and 1 hour after I take my drugs in the morning and at night, thus shrinking the window I have to eat 4oz meals 6 times day, coordinate my beverage intake, and take supplements. It seems restricted for normal people, now take 6 hours out of my day I’m not allowed to eat and it just seems like every minute of the day will be….drink water, eat, take pills, etc. I just don’t think I can manage it. I wish I could. I have mad respect for you.

  17. Way to go. I’ve been noticing the weight loss in your recent pictures and videos. That’s awesome.

    My Gia is a lap-band girl. It can be a great way for folks to lose that weight. Huzzah for you!

  18. You covered up the twigs and berries!!

    As much as I hate to further feed your ego (::snerk::) I think what you’re doing is awesome, and as someone who has struggled with her weight for the past 8 years, I give you a lot of credit for taking the steps to be healthy.

    At my highest weight (nearly 300 lbs), I consulted with a few doctors about Gastric Bypass surgery. My PCP would not agree to it as he feels that being overweight starts and ends in the mind, and having the surgery does not fix the behavior, it only magnifies it. I believe his exact words were, “get your ass on a treadmill and stop eating crap. Find out why you’re eating like you’re eating and start loving yourself.” I partly believe him, but I also believe that each person’s journey is different, and if surgery works for them so be it.

    I can’t wait to see your results in October. 🙂

    1. @Robin, your PCP sounds a little close-minded. There’s definitely something to be said for introspection, but once you know that you are not going to be able to do it, you need a doctor who will support you.

  19. I, myself am pushing 3 bills right now, and have been dealing with apnea and chest pains.
    You’ve inspired me, my friend. May you continue your journey with as little stress as possible, and much joy and hope!
    Here’s to a long healthy life, and an easier tying of the shoes from here on out. Congrats brother!!


    you look AWESOME!

  20. Congrats!!! I was thinking in your pictures you were looking thinner but that isn’t something that you want to comment on, you know? Sometimes people get all freaked out and defensive if you say “wow, you look like you are losing weight”. Good luck!!

    I want to have that done but it is a 3 year waiting list here because, as the doctor told me at 128kg (281 lbs), “There isn’t anything wrong with you. You are completely healthy” grrr….So I am doing Atkins. 2 weeks and I have lost 6kg (roughly 10 lbs).

  21. love, love, LOVE the look on your face in that sexond photo. i mean second photo.

    oh dammit, if i start having even more sex dreams about you i am gonna punch you for posting naked photos. it is bad enough that my hot blogger calendar has been on july all year.

    (i’m so proud of you for doing this for YOU. your health is important and we need you around for a long time, my friend.)

  22. Oh, thank goodness. Now I don’t have to feel guilty that I let the cat out of the bag at BabeCon that they should expect a mini-Avitable at Avitaween. 🙂


      1. @Avitable, I know people noticed, I just really enjoy being a non-observant-seeming, airheaded-seeming, idiot-seeming, crass-seeming jackass because you know that’s not really who I am. 😀

  23. Being a fat woman myself, I applaud you! I know how hard it can be when diets don’t work and you just love food. I truly do!

    I wish you the best of luck and even more succces with your weight loss goals!

    You can totally do it.

  24. Oh my God, that’s fucking FABULOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Congratulations!!!

    This post, for whatever reason, made me teary-eyed. I had no idea that you were that heavy. I had no idea that it was — no pun intended — weighing on you. I was teary-eyed because I think it’s so terrific that YOU are doing something for YOU.

    You’re doing GREAT!

  25. Dude, that is totally FUCKING awesome! Lemme tell ya, it is all I can do to ride past Checkers in the afternoons after work and not follow the wafting scent of Checker Fries to their “Order Here” window.

    You are my hero man!

  26. Awesome!

    You are inspring.

    Keep up the good work.

    And to mention something that was already mentioned, for every 30 pounds you lose, you gain an inch of penis. Are you gonna be able to handle that?

  27. I don’t know if I say this enough but I am so very very proud of you and happy for you. Watching you do this was half of my inspiration to finally stick to it this time, just so you know.

    You *do* look great…thinner every time I see you.

  28. Wow… The Member really is THAT big. 😉

    Good on you for taking it on, for finding the motivation to stick to it, and for taking care of yourself. (And the nude photos. Damn. I know you’ve done it before but still I don’t know of many folks who would do that. Maybe it’s something about male nudity being funny. Dunno.)

    I struggle with my weight as well, and I know how hard it can be to totally change your lifestyle… do you feel better?

  29. Congratulations! I had thought in the pictures and especially in the videos that you’d posted the past few months that your face looked a LOT thinner. I have the brochures for the surgery sitting on my dresser where they’ve been for the past six months. I’m just so afraid that it won’t work, that somehow I’ll find a way to screw it up. Seeing your success helps… thanks!!

  30. Wow, 100 lbs! And in a relatively short period of time, too. That’s awesome. I had weight issues myself back in college. I managed to take off my weight, but it took me a year to drop 50 lbs. Having to chew your food thoroughly and taking at least 15-20 minutes to eat only initially sounds like a drag. It’s really a blessing in disguise. You’re forced to slow down and actually eat like you’re supposed to instead of inhaling your food.

  31. You look wonderful Adam! I have been trying to lose weight for months with no real results. But seeing how well you have done I may look into the lapband for myself! Thank you so much for sharing this.

    1. @MidLifeMama, while I can’t imagine that a few horrible naked photos and a story of weight loss would ever save a life, if it makes people consider a new option, I’m cool with that.

  32. I could tell in photos that you posted that you were physically changing. Thank you for sharing your struggle and your story with all of us. I really appreciate hearing a guy’s perspective on this. I know you’re going to meet your goal! Doesn’t it feel great to lose weight for yourself? I am feeling that way lately too.

    For what it’s worth, I’ve always thought you were one hot tamale. 😉

  33. I’m almost certain that this will be an echo of practically everything that’s above, but I. Don’t. Care.

    Go, you. You can do anything that you put your considerable will towards. My faith for in you in this endeavor will only be matched by my pride for you when you succeed. I, too, have a weight loss goal, and seeing you start down this path inspires me to work as hard as I can to achieve it.

    You can do it, Adam. Though we have never met (and may never meet), know that I’m wishing the best for you, and rooting for you as hard as any of your friends.

  34. For someone with her own weight issues….i applaud you for sharing your story! This has completely motivated me! Thanks Adam!!!! Good luck on your journey. I will be on my own journey too!

  35. You look great, babe. And I’m so happy that you’re doing so well, but it’s for purely selfish reasons: I want you around for a long time.

    Although I must say anything that kept you out of Olive Garden can’t be ALL bad.

  36. You are BRAVE. Awesome. Determined. Inspiring.
    Much love to you – you can and will do this. Besides the obvious change, your skin & hair look better too. Did you notice that?
    Amazing, amazing job Adam. I’m in your corner, all the way!

  37. Confession : I read your blog every morning before I get out of bed (I subscribed via e-mail before I finally learned how to use the feed reader thingy). It takes me a good ten to fifteen minutes to be awake enough to actually put my feet on the floor. It’s a real bummer when you post a video because I can’t watch videos on my phone. But it’s so nice to start the day off with a big laugh at whatever piece of debauchery you choose to share with us on a given day.

    Today though….I started out my day with tears in my eyes. Tears of pride and joy and yeah, sadness for how you felt before the surgery. I’m so so proud of you. I love you Adamdizzle.

    Shutting the fuck up now….xoxo

  38. you are courageous for taking the first step and getting this far.
    it’s an amazing feat to see what you’re capable of doing when you set your mind to it.
    good luck to you!
    (and feel free to pass the leftovers to me…i could use them.)

      1. @Avitable, i weigh 100lbs and i’m very petite, but people seem to think i’m anorexic or bulimic. i’m told all the time, “here’s a hamburger.” the thing is, i never pass up food. i LOVE food. seriously, it’s my boyfriend part-time. 🙂

  39. You’re an inspiration to everyone too lazy to just eat less and exercise more. :p

    Seriously, why did they want you to lose weight before the procedure? I thought they might make you do that so that when you went to the hospital they could just say “See, you don’t need the procedure after all.”

  40. Congratulations on taking the steps to get healthy…100 pounds is amazing, and you’re looking great…healthier, happier, and all that jazz. I am fat, too, but trying to be better, and will look to you as an inspiration! Keep on truckin’, you’re doing great.

  41. That’s a very impressive weight loss… even before the surgery.

    I hope it’s not going to effect the length of the black box between your legs though… because that would be unfortunate.

  42. I love how the first picture is like “Someone. Shoot me.” and, by the second one, “Things are looking up.” The 225 shot is gonna be sweet. Maybe we can lose the box for the 225.

    Nice work, Adam. I’ve kicked a lot of stuff and this is the hardest.

  43. Adam,
    I can’t begin to tell you how proud I am of you. I lost a close friend to a sudden heart attack due to obesity and wish he had been able to sit back and take a closer look at his life like you have.

    Congratulations on you success so far and know I am cheering for you!

  44. Wow Adam, this takes real balls (surprisingly not even shown) to wite about. I am really proud of you for posting but most of all for taking on something so difficult. I have always had the opposite issue with food and the opposite weight problem but I think they are similar in that it is really hard to talk about.

    My husband lost over 100 pounds a few years ago and although it was one of the hardest things he has ever done, he did it and I was super proud of him. He didn’t do it for me, I actually thought he was fine no matter what, but since he did it for himself, it stuck. You look great, and I wish you luck in accomplishing whatever you want to accomplish.

  45. Awesome. Here’s where we differ. My blog is all about obsessing on anything and everything weight related. You go and lose a hundy and then showcase the fruits of your labor. Perhaps I should take your lead. Thanks for the inspiration, you look amazing, black rectangle and all.

  46. Glad to see the dimples in the right set of cheeks. And don’t worry – I’m sure the black box length won’t need to be shortened. Don’t let Matthew and Jacquie scare you.

    Of course, we’ll need proof that it’s really necessary that the box is there though…

  47. Looking good Adam, looking goooood. I assumed that losing 100 pounds in 5 months was an impossible task until now. Also this has to be the most comments on a blog post for you, right?

  48. Now you’re going to have to re-do your sidebar photos.

    Your face has so much more character now – and I’ve noticed that you do smile more in your videos lately. 🙂

    I want to use that diet for my wedding!

    Congrats, Adam. 100 pounds is nothing to sneeze at. 😀

  49. I noticed in your videos lately that you were looking alot thinner and here you are 100 pounds thinner! What a great accomplishment. I am so so proud of you! Keep up the great work.

  50. this subject is near and dear to my heart. i’m so proud that you did the lap band and your results are truly inspiring. after years of vaccilating between anorexia and bulimia, i’m attempting a healthier form of weight loss. i’m only down 20 – with another 25-30 to go – which probably seems like nothing to you. it’s weird, being fat, or miserable with yourself, or medicating with food. i had to find something else to deal with my emotions other than pie. or whatever the food of the day is. i don’t know how to say this without sound mushy or trite but i really needed to read this today. seeing you doing it – with such successful results – and being happy about it makes me feel like i have a better chance to my own success.

    ps. next time take the black boxes off. full frontal nudity!

  51. yay for sharing your journey!

    also…i don’t know if you did it on purpose but i LOVE that your before and after photos look like the ones on advertisements. sad and happy. the only thing missing is the first photo isn’t black and white!

  52. I think it’s awesome you have lost so much weight and that you continue to lose. Is the band going to be part of you forever now, or do they remove it at some point? Do you find yourself eating healthier foods now that you are losing weight? (I still go out for a burger, but I tend to skip the fries now.) Hope you don’t mind the questions. I’m curious, especially since I’m on a similar journey to lose weight.

    And the airplane thing. Ugh. My heaviest was probably around 240-ish, and I hated sitting in the airplane. The belt barely fit around me. But the last time I flew, they seem to have put in bigger seats, so it’s all good now. 😉

    1. @Lynda, the band can be removed if you want, but I don’t know if I’d bother. It’s just another procedure that I’d have to undergo. I eat somewhat healthier, because I tend to stay away from empty calories, but I’ll still eat some fried foods and the occasional sweet.

  53. Adam, you are adorable. I’m more than a little unhappy about the blacking out of your … uh … nethers, but I’ll get over it. I have a couple of questions, and I’m sorry if they’re repeats, I didn’t look at all the other comments. First, does your insurance cover this, or was it out of pocket? would you mind letting me know how much it cost, or a approximation?

    Next, I have a *new* (to me) iMac, and your background is black with white type… is that correct? this thing is a dinosaur, and it fucks up a bunch of weird things, just wondering if your site is one of them.

    Oh, and? GOOD FOR YOU.



    1. @just beth, my insurance covered it, minus my deductible. The total cost is usually around $15,000. And it’s your iMac. It should look normal in Safari. If you have more questions, please email me and I’d be happy to answer them.

  54. Oh Adam, I wanted to weep for your teenage years, and am thrilled you have found a new lease of life. I used to be 50lbs heavier than I presently am, and I am in a much happier place now for having shed it. I have no doubt at all you will reach your target weight, you are already well on the way there.

  55. Congratu-fucking-lations, darlin’! As everyone else has said in the 100 or so comments before me, great job! I’m so proud of you! And I need you to call my friend Chip and get him to try this surgery, because he, as well, desperately needs it.

    Very, very, very proud, hon!

  56. You wrote the story of my fiancee. It is ver similar, the whole weight in school, the stress eating in law school, the big portions…it is part of his story including the age.

    You wrote of the fears that I have, the heart problems, the sleep apnea, the joints.

    I hope that he comes to the decision to lose the weight. It has to be his decision but, I want him to live a long life too. I hope one day, his story will mirror yours. I hope…

  57. Yeah…so…well.
    Here we are.

    You know I’ve been hounding you about this…I’m all, “How the hell are you doing it?” And you were all, “What? You’re crazy.”

    And I knew…in my heart of hearts I knew. See, being a fat girl mahself, I know. Two years ago I lost 130 pounds. I was over 450 pounds. I lost 130 pounds on WW.

    And? Over the last year, gained most of it back. Fast.

    So I knew you were doing something somewhat drastic. The thing I am afraid to do. And I was a little mad at you. For being braver than me. For making the decision I knew I needed to make. So I was all, “Fuck you Adam”.

    Now? I’m all, “Thanks, Adam.”

    I’ve got some decisions to make myself.


  58. P.S. I am ABSOLUTELY amazed and proud of you. I know that probably doesn’t mean shit…but there it is. You? Are brave and justified in feeling so much better.

    I get it, I understand how hard it is. It’s a whole lot of work. And you are doing a wonderful job. Keep at it, kiddo.

  59. Good for you!

    My brother-in-law had gastric bypass surgery about five years ago. He lost, and kept off, about 200lbs. He had to change not only his eating habits, but his lifestyle. I know it’s not easy. You should be very proud of yourself.

  60. I haven’t been following long and could tell your face looked thinner.

    Congratulations! I can’t wait to meet you next month!

    Are you bringing the black box with you? If so, I’d suggest the smaller one.

  61. Jaysus that is just brilliant. I have noticed in your pics that you are looking very good. I am so happy for you. I’d say your wife is bursting with pride for you, as she should be. The very best of luck to you in this journey. Thanks so much for sharing this. Cheers.

  62. *standing ovation* I am so so proud of you. Not only that you did this for yourself, but that you’ve shared it with us. It takes (Avita)balls to share this much of your life with ‘strangers’.

    I can’t even tell you how happy I am for you and this journey you’re taking! *hugs*

  63. I always suspected it, but couldn’t prove it before this post. Now I know. You KICK ASS! That’s really great news, Adam. I am so happy for you (and inspired myself).

    Also, now I can see that you really do have a huge wang. Impressive. The best part is that it will keep growing as you lose more weight and soon you’ll have to wrap it carefully around your leg so you don’t step on it.

  64. The fact that you are finally taking your health serious is wonderful. The fact that you are willing to share it with the internet is completely amazing. This has to be one of the most honest posts of yours that I’ve read. Thank you for sharing, and for providing inspiration in those of us who are also trying to lose weight. You look fabulous dahling!

  65. Adam Adam Adam… I knew it, and I am so so so damn proud that you decided to do this for yourself. You have made an incredible choice for yourself and you look absolutely amazing. I myself have lost almost 30 lbs since March 30th… 90 days and 27-30 lbs, so a nearly 10 pound loss per month… I’m taking it slow and steady, and I would love to be at my goal weight by the end of this year. I am 5’9″ and started this journey at 246.2 on 3/30/09 and right now I weigh 218.8 and my goal weight is 170-175 lbs… so I have about about 45 more pounds to lose, and cannot wait. I can’t remember the last time I weighed under 200 lbs. I have a mini goal to be around 210 by the time BlogHer rolls around too.

    So happy for you, it’s an amazing feeling to lose weight and feel wonderful…

    I have my diet blog at too that I try to write on every now and then and keep my stats and pictures and such…feel free to visit.

    Hopefully I’ll be able to meet you at BlogHer 🙂

  66. Awesome, you’re pretty damn brave to write about this, it can be a hard thing for people to deal with.

    Wish you the best, hope you don’t encounter stalls or anything of the sort. I’m also very glad that you’ll be around to be a pain in the ass for a really long time.

  67. congratulations on 100lbs! thats awesome. I recently looked into lap band and am going for the seminar on the 14th and if its for me (which I’m hoping it will be) I’ll be scheduling my consult after that. keep up the great work!

  68. I am coming out of lurkdom to comment on your awesomeness. I had the bypass in Dec/05. I mourned the loss of my friend, Food, for a long time but it was so worth it. I have lost, and kept off, 160 pounds.

    Take those vitamins, avoid drinking the cals and continue to kick ass.

    PS I don’t know if this happened to you but after my first 50 coming off, I kept getting: Did you get a hair cut? Yeah, most expensive and mind-fucking hair cut of them all. 🙂

  69. I thought you’ve been looking thinner lately. Way to go!

    My husband is starting all the pre-surgery stuff that our insurance company requires. He also wants to get the Lap-Band. A couple of our friends have done it as well, with great success.

    Thanks for being an inspiration.

  70. Holy shit, Adam.

    You just blew my fucking mind.

    I guess I never really thought about your weight before, or imagined you as any definitive size — even though I’ve watched plenty of your videos. I guess that’s the beauty of the Internet, or maybe that’s just the beauty of you.

    You’re awesome, whatever your weight.

  71. You are the epitome of awesome. I’m inspired by you and was so blown away tonight how amazing you look! Keep up the great work, and I’m so honored to have you as a friend. 🙂

  72. Wow – you are doing FANTASTIC!!! It’s hard work – you may have had the surgery – but it’s still you making sure you eat what you are supposed to eat, not get sick, etc.

    Wow, Adam… that is just awesome.

    Keep it up – you are going to be so healthy – and out live us all.

  73. I, too, am coming out from the shadows to say “Congratulations!” I don’t think I can really say more than has already been said, but I did want to say that I think you are an amazing and courageous man.

    And, I can’t wait to see the follow up pics! 🙂

  74. I read you daily through my feed and rarely click over. Sorry for that. I just wanted to say congratulations on such an honest post. It seems you rarely hear men talking about their struggles with weight. Congratulations withe the progress you’ve made. I’m glad the surgery has been so helpful to you.

  75. Adam, from someone who was a skinny shit in high school while he was smoking and then put on weight like a brick house when he quit, congratulations. Really and truly. It’s a terrible thing to hate the way you look, especially when it seems like the whole world hates it too. The country is not kind to men over 200 lbs.

  76. You sly dog you! I knew you had lost weight when I last saw you! I’m really happy for you and I’m just starting the Watch Watchers thing and man alive is it tough. I tip my hat to you and all your hard work. Wait, I’m not wearing a hat, but you get the idea 🙂 Good Job!!! What you are doing is not for the weak at heart and I’m really proud of you!!!

  77. Adam thats fantastic. Seriously I’m really happy for you. I’ve been trying to shift extra weight for years but I’m too much of a wimp to actually do anything about it properly. Congratulations!

  78. I normally don’t comment on blogs written by people who are 1) complete strangers and 2) clearly much smarter than I (avoiding abject scorn is a livelong goal), but I loved, loved, loved this entry. And the pictures gave it a little something extra…insert clever pun about word usage here.

    Best wishes on your weight loss journey! You are officially an inspiration.

  79. first time back on-line in nearly a month. Direct TV Internet sucksass. Oh sorry… what I meant to say was “Way Cool Dude!”

    Then I wanted to ask you privately if losing weight makes yer weewee smaller? I have been telling myself it is kinda hard to find because of my access weight… but if THAT is gunna shrink with the rest of me I would have to agree lap band surgery is not for everybody.

  80. I’ve been noticing in your recent photos that you looked thinner in the face, but I didn’t want to say anything. I figured if you weren’t talking about it, I shouldn’t either, you know?

    But, you’re incredible. For this, and so many other reasons.

    Oh yes, can I hug you at BlogHer? Not like big long lost lover hug, just a “omg hey this is me squueeeinnggg” hug. Is that weird? Etiquette’s not my thing. I don’t want you to be all ‘bitch I don’t know you like that’ or ‘bitch you ain’t my woman, get off me’.

    1. @Maria, I appreciate that. I wasn’t embarrassed or anything, but I knew that I wanted to keep it a secret until I was ready. And of course you can hug me – I don’t mind hugging at all. I might grab your butt, though.

  81. I’d seen tweets about how inspiring the post was, just hadn’t gotten over here yet…and yeah – they were right. This is awesome, and I wish you the best on your continued journey down the weight loss/health trail!!

      1. @Avitable, You start with an ‘A’, you’re one of the first I read. na ner na ner.

        To actually pay ATTENTION to what I read & comment something besides ‘YAY YOU’ is a whole new story. 😉

  82. Wow, that is awesome – now if they made airplane black boxes as big as yours, they might find them faster after a plane crash….

    I’m super happy for you, I can’t even imagine how good it feels to have such a fantastic reveal – and how you kept it under wraps!!

  83. I have not been reading your blog for that long, but I wish I had been. I think you are awesome. I think that posting this was incredibly brave. I haven’t been where you were, and never got heavy enough that I thought surgery was a legitimate option. I used to be against that surgery until one of my best friends had it and it absolutely changed her life for the better, and let the person she really was inside come out. I started my journey at 267 lbs (5’7″), and with Weight Watchers and exercise have lost 24 pounds in 23 weeks. It’s slow going, obviously nothing like surgery can do, but I am trying. Only 90 more pounds to go… I love that you make me laugh and then surprise me with an incredible post like this. Anyhow, I’ll stop rambling now. You look great, keep up the good work!

  84. You definitely look happier and younger in your second picture. That is quite a life commitment. Does it ever come out or need replacing? I saw this title on my facebook margin, so I had to take a look! 🙂 I’m glad is working so well for you and will make your and Amy’s life better. Huge lifestyle change- amazing.

  85. I just reread my comment and I wrote I like you. I meant and like you I decided to do something about my weight. Not that there’s nothing to not like about you, but that would be super creepy if someone wrote…I like you. Never mind.

  86. First of all…congratulations!! You look fantastic!! I’ve been thinking about this post for a couple of days because it has inspired me. I didn’t realise how much until I found myself telling my boyfriend about you and how much you’d lost. I’ve always had an issue with my weight and just recently I’ve been having a lot of issues with my depression and as a result drinking lots and eating crap. My boyfriend and I had just started eating healthy and exercising when I read your post. Thank you! I love reading weight loss stories. And because I’ve been reading your blog for a little while (and not commenting) it was inspiring. I have no idea why I felt I had to write an explanation because I don’t know you, but I did. I just wanted to say, THANK YOU!

  87. Hey- I went with Dee and Lee to your Never Was Fair this past October 😉 It was awesome!
    You look so wonderful and the smile you’re wearing shows it as well.

    I’m curious as to the regime of the ketosis and protein you did.I have about 45 pounds to loose and am at a loss.I don’t qualify for lapband and I don’t have fast food habits. I am simply stuck and it sucks. It obviously worked for you to prepare you for the surgery. I have called nutritionists and they want tons of money.

    How many days ketosis (carb deplete) etc? What was the formula?

    1. @katie tortosa, hi – thanks for the comment. I basically created my own diet that worked for me. Essentially:

      Day 1-7: no carb
      Day 8-11: high protein, low carb shakes (5-6 a day max), followed immediately with a bottle of water. No food.

      I just repeated that for the two months before I scheduled the surgery, and then stuck with three weeks of all liquids before I had the surgery.

      1. @Avitable, Just remember fat can be fixed, but cute is forever. It only gets better from here!!

        I agree with you about the lawyers – most have had a stick permanently shoved up their ass – I think its a bonus at graduation.

  88. You’ve probably never heard of me, or read my blog, or even know I exisit…but thank you for this. Thank you for the honesty and brute guts it took to put this out there.

    Maybe one day I will be as grown up and in control of my life as you are to be able to stand up and say this, rather than sticking my finger down my throat in order to keep from gaining another fucking pound.

    Good luck Adam. I’ll be watching and cheering you on!

  89. I’m a little late to the party, but couldn’t pass up the opportunity to say congrats on doing this for you and your health! You look amazing, it appears you have the sipport of the entire internet, and I have no doubt you will reach your goal! In fact, you’ve always been the type to learn faster than everyone else, so I think you will reach your goal sooner than planned. From a fellow formerly fat girl shedding weight the old fashioned way (none of this new fangled technology for me!) I’ll glady support your efforts!
    Keep it up, there are ONLY benefits ahead!

  90. I’m also very late with this comment but wanted to say WOW – great job! You may just be the motivation I’ve been needing to get off my lazy ass and lose my hundred as well! Can’t wait to see the Oct and Dec photos!

  91. That is amazing.
    I applaud you, your nude photos, your honesty, your courage and your well hell.. your bad ass weight loss and attitude.

    That is phenomenal. Congratulations, and hear hear!!!
    Thank you for bearing your soul and allowing us this glimpse into you.
    I’m rooting for you.

  92. Hey- somehow I missed this when it originally “aired.” Of course, I knew about it from seeing you in person. I admire your courage with undergoing such a radical procedure and for writing about it publicly. I can’t wait til your next birthday.

    Oh, and it scares me to read about the stress of starting a business, as I frequently have chest pain, back pain, etc. and have quit exercising (but I drink instead of eat).

  93. having seen you this past week, it was amazing — the transformation. you’ve always been handsome, but now you’re looking killer. not the point tho. point is? you’re going to be around a LOT longer. that makes me happy.

  94. This post just gave me the guts to finally call my surgeon about my own weight loss options. At 325, I’m tired of being the ‘fat lady’… Granted, your new post about puking up your guts scares the bejesus out of me, but I’m way past the point of caring about a little vomit.
    Thanks, Adam- for the kick in the ass I’ve needed for awhile now.

  95. hello, delurking 🙂

    i’m a tad underweight and i’ve been told to put on ten pounds and it simply doesn’t happen whatever I do. But i used to be obese and I remember how sensitive i was about it, and how very difficult it was to lose all that weight healthily.

    i am twenty so maybe this is inappropriate, but you are truly, ridiculously sexy. (also inspiring. but mostly sexy.)

  96. I was very impressed, i am at 260 and starting to have health issues, would you mind writing to me and letting me know how you did it in more detail. I have two pockets of fat that have gotten slightly bigger over the years as i gained, they say thats some condition. But all the rest is just me being fat. Thanks for letting us read your story. Youre an inspiration

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