I said I wasn’t going to do these for thirty days consecutively, but only use them as writing prompts when needed. Well, since I leave tonight for Burlington, Vermont, for four days and have a shitload to do before I go, plus have added work-related stress, I needed a prompt. And here we go:
What’s something you have to forgive yourself for?
I’ve forgiven myself for all of my transgressions, all of the times that I thought I was being the best friend someone could ask for when I was being selfish. I’ve thought through my motivations, I’ve looked at the lessons I’ve learned, and I’ve looked at the positive results that have come from actions I have considered despicable. And I’m finally okay with it all. So what’s left?
I forgive myself for being afraid of change. I forgive myself for being so worried about controlling everything around me that I let myself stagnate and suffer in silence. I forgive myself for being in the way of my own personal, emotional, and mental growth.
Even more importantly, I know what I need to strive towards. I need to be happy. I need to put my needs ahead of those of others if necessary. I will not impede my own path any longer.